I've come to the realization that I have to actually work at interpersonal relationships. Not in the way that I don't want them and have to consciously make them work because of that, though. I want them. They just don't seem to come naturally. In my natural state, I would be living in my isolated bubble, waiting for people to approach me. With effort. I have to actually think about contacting people, and become determined to do it, in order for it to work. Most times I'm rewarded for this. It doesn't make it any less difficult, though. I suppose it's just a personality quirk. Believe me, though, it's nothing personal when I make myself unavailable. It's just a natural state. Not that I don't want to be disturbed; it's just easier that way. Sometimes you'll have to shake me out of it. I'll be grateful eventually, I promise.
You'll have to excuse me. I'm slightly drunk in addition to having difficulty keeping my eyes open. It's rather amazing that I managed to say something in as articulate a manner as I did, with minimal typos. Current non-controlled typing status: i shwer that i can sya things wihtous mainf a mistake. yed.
Hurray for lackings of restraint. Yes.
1 comment:
i am stupid. I know this. it is now almost sixam and i thought i would check out your blog...and now i am stuck. I know that i do not have to comment but my sleep deprived brain has yet to relay this information to my hands...there was a time when my friends called me the invisible man...cos i had a habit of dropping off the face of the earth...i guess i am rambling at you just to give you a little company and a lot of empathy...take care meagunn.
~robert.
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