halloween

So tonight was the main night for Halloween parties around here. Considering everyone has stuff to do over the weekdays and everything. Tonight was pretty good, I suppose. Walked around a hell of a lot, 'till my ankles bled. Saw slutty chicks in their Halloween costumes. Played the semi-responsible "of age" beer buyer. Went to a random party and all that. Got drunk.

Then had a long conversation with Noah about how we can never get what we're looking for, simply because it's specific. Listened to music. Came back here. And cried a bit.

Really, why do things have to be so difficult? I only wish I knew. I really, really wish things could be simple... This is something I could never talk to Bunnyman about, as bad as it seems.

As good as things are now, I'm still pretty sure I will die alone.

Tuesday I get surgery and maybe drugs. My parents are coming to laugh at me and make sure I don't get lost in Evansdale after the dopeyness. Hopefully after a week my jaw will no longer feel like someone's implanted chestnuts in there. Hurray.

Youtube sodomy madness

I'm not in the best mood today, and sodomy cheers me up. So here, have some videos... they're all non-porny.

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First, we have Michael Moore's "Sodomobile":

Few know that Peter Jackson, Mr. LOTR and King Kong, did a puppetsploitation film called "Meet the Feebles" This is the song "Sodomy" (quite catchy):

And a movie parody of the Jack Chick tract "Doom Town." That man is an unintentional comic genius:

Hum. Still sad, but they're fun.

argh timelines

There's so much stuff I need to remember to do in the next few weeks.

The JET application is out, and I'm slowly filling it out. I really need to just sit down and do the whole thing one night, but homework gets in the way of that, as it does with many other essential functions like sleeping and eating.

I need to catch up on my Chinese. I need to study my Japanese. I really need to get caught up on German. There's a lot of stuff I need to do for BiGLTM. This tutoring situation needs to be resolved at some point in time, considering apparently no undergrads need any German tutoring. And then there's all the paperworky-stuff I need to get accomplished on various parts of campus...it's times like these where I wish I had a clone and the clone could go off and do everything for me while I remained home, asleep

The clone should be well-versed in ways of dealing with drama, and should have great communication skills.

Japanese. Now.

rolling

There have been lots of dips and swings lately. Requisite drama, craziness, midterms... With each passing day, I know better where I stand. I guess that's good. I've been fluctuating wildly between feeling like shit and feeling damned good about myself, but the ruts seem to be getting shallower and shallower. Probably symptomatic with actually forcing myself to get back out into the world.

In the last week I've helped people, met old friends, seen new ones, and started to come to terms again with who and what I am. What you are is nothing that has to be announced outright to the world; it's something people see and realize. And that's okay. It's okay for people to point out the obvious. And it's okay for you to be okay with it. You are who you are. Nothing changes in that respect aside from the occasional redefinition.

This seems a little incoherant, and I'm not sure where I'm going with it. Suffice it to say that I currently feel a bit more comfortable in my own skin (which is good, 'cos I can't take it off). I'm not angry, I'm not depressed or hermitagely-inclined.

This may last only for the duration of tonight, but that's still good. I had a good day today: told I was talented, passed some exams, ate Chinese pineapple shortcake and drank tea for the Moon Festival, watched and took pictures of a successful protest, listened to a spontaneous musical performance and got a fabulous massage. It's also cool to be accepted as a lesbian even when you're in a relationship with a man. (Gender, orientation, all fluid. A pox upon labely-folks.)

Now is a time for harvest, a time for reaping what you've sown and either being satisfied with the bounty or faced with hardship from the meager return. It seems this season I've done well. And things will work out okay for all. Even for those whose harvest was sparse, I have fruit to share.

We'll all make it, and things will be okay.

technology is great

So I hacked into my phone so I can get crap off of it without having to shell out bucks to Moto/USCC. And now I can do stuff. La.

P.S.: Yes, in the video below I am dirty and acting like a mild idiot. Bite me.

mobile phone hack test