Things are going a bit more smoothly than I expected. Which is good. I just need to get some more things straightened up, and everything'll be peachy.
We're having a benefit dinner this Sunday at Maxwell's; come buy a ticket, eat food, watch us do strange things and watch me do strange things with words. I command you, and whatnot.
The real reason for this entry is a small favor to Neil Gaiman:
Penn Jillette
Apparently he wants to mess with him. I'm helping; we'll see where it goes.
2.02.2007
1.30.2007
Bones.
I built a tower from my bones
for you,
shining to the sky.
I tanned my flesh
and used it for the walls.
My organs were the garlands,
hung carefully,
waiting for the celebration
that would make this self-degradation
worth it in the end.
My teeth paved the path
that you would arrive on;
my tongue was the carpet.
My eyes stood watch
at the gates.
The lights were hung.
I was ready
But you did not come.
The tower stands,
crumbling,
waiting.
for you,
shining to the sky.
I tanned my flesh
and used it for the walls.
My organs were the garlands,
hung carefully,
waiting for the celebration
that would make this self-degradation
worth it in the end.
My teeth paved the path
that you would arrive on;
my tongue was the carpet.
My eyes stood watch
at the gates.
The lights were hung.
I was ready
But you did not come.
The tower stands,
crumbling,
waiting.
1.24.2007
And perhaps I am a house....
And perhaps I am a house,
all windows and waiting
for you to come home
and turn the porch light on.
Perhaps I am a house
full of the ghosts of Memory
who scatter when you come
to lie down your head.
In the morning you leave
and they come back to haunt me,
but houses need not
be concerned by these things.
I am glad you have found
a place to live.
There've been many eyes
that've looked out these windows;
many hands
have opened these doors.
You, like the others, are migrant;
you will not be staying long.
And as you turn the porch light off
in the early morning gloom,
I cannot help but think:
Even houses need a heart
in which to live.
all windows and waiting
for you to come home
and turn the porch light on.
Perhaps I am a house
full of the ghosts of Memory
who scatter when you come
to lie down your head.
In the morning you leave
and they come back to haunt me,
but houses need not
be concerned by these things.
I am glad you have found
a place to live.
There've been many eyes
that've looked out these windows;
many hands
have opened these doors.
You, like the others, are migrant;
you will not be staying long.
And as you turn the porch light off
in the early morning gloom,
I cannot help but think:
Even houses need a heart
in which to live.
1.17.2007
random quiz thing 'cos I'm bored
THE MISSION: GET THROUGH THIS MASSIVE QUIZ TRUTHFULLY.
Time Started: 3:44 a.m.
Name: Meagunn
Gender: wha?
1) When showering, do you start the water and then get in or get in and start the water?
I always start the water first. The showers here are screwy.
2) Do you read the labels on the shampoo bottle?
If I'm particularly enjoying the shower and need some reading material...
3) Do you moan in the shower like the people on the herbal essence commercials?
Um, no.
5) Have you ever been forced to shower with one of your siblings?
Not that I can think of.
6.) Have you ever brushed your teeth in the shower?
I usually do... It makes everything clean all at once.
7) Have you ever dropped your soap on your foot?
When I used soap, yeah. But I've dropped bottles.
8) How old do you look?
People either think I'm a lot older or younger than I am.
9) How old do you act?
It really depends on who I'm with at the time.
10) What's the last song you heard/sang?
The Asshole Song by Denis Leary.
11) Have you recently become a member of anything?
Not recently, luckily. I have a tendency to get roped into things.
12) What are your plans for the weekend?
Drinking probably. And doing homework. Ehm.
13) What is your mood at the moment?
Relaxed. Settling into sleep mode.
14.) Have you ever ridden a mechanical bull?
I wish. I'd like to try that someday...
15) Do you ever intentionally vomit after drinking?
Intentionally? Hell no. Unintentionally? On occasion...
16) If you were working on a pirate ship, what would you most likely be?
Yarrgh, I be a sea-wench.
17) Have you ever called anyone a slut?
Probably jokingly. And intentionally, really.
18) Has anyone ever called you a slut?
I'm not usually the type to inspire those kinds of comments in people...
19) Have you ever smuggled something into Canada?
Ants. From Ohio.
20) Does playing a guitar make someone more attractive?
Actually.... yes. I'm ashamed to say.
21) Do you live in a city with a good sports team?
Well, maybe. But I don't follow sports all that well.
22) Have you ever finished off the popcorn?
Yeah.
23) Have you ever turned someone down for a date?
Yeah.
24) What's your favorite super-hero?
The Incredible Hulk. And Gambit. And Too Much Coffee Man. And The Tick. Ehm.
25) Do you have more enemies or more friends?
Friends.
26) Have you ever sent an anonymous letter?
Probably at some point.
27) Can you fix your own car?
Depending on the problem, yes.
29) Are you smarter than your friends?
IQ? Yes for some, no for a couple. Otherwise...it's all relative.
30) Have you ever stolen anything from your friends?
I ask first, thank you.
31) Have you ever been to jail?
Nope.
32) Last thing you bought over 50 dollars?
Textbooks?
33) Do you like the smell of beer?
Good beer? Yes.
34) Have you ever died or killed someone in a dream?
Violently.
35) Have you ever given to charity?
When I had money.
36) Would you kill a dog for $1000?
Ashamed to say... probably. That's a lot of money.
37) Do you ever get depressed?
Yes.
38) Do you live with your parents?
Hell no.
39) Do you have plans for your future?
I hope so.
You are
[x] short (under 5'4")
[ ] 5'4"-5'5"
[ ] 5'5"-5.6"
[ ] 5'6.5"-5'7"
[ ] 5'7"-6'0"
[ ] tall (6.1 and up)
NATURALLY
[ ] blonde
[ ] redhead
[ ] brunette
[ ] dirty blonde
[ ] brownish
[ ] dark brown
[ ] black
[ ] red/light brown
[x] Don't Know, Dyed Too Much
[ ] blue-eyed
[x] brown-eyed
[ ] black-eyed
[ ] green-eyed
[ ] Hazel-eyed
[ ] gold/grey-eyed
[ ] silver/grey-eyed
[ ] blue/green-eyed
[ ] blue/grey-eyed
[ ] green/grey-eyed
[ ] they change colours (see above)
[ ] amber
[X]glasses
[ ] contacts
[ ] neither
[ ]Both
[ ] bald
[x] short hair
[ ] medium hair
[ ] long hair
Your favourite color(s) are?
[x] red
[ ] khaki
[ ] aqua
[ ] pink
[ ] hot pink
[ ] yellow
[x] black
[x] green
[ ] lime green
[ ] blue (all)
[ ] white
[ ] turquoise
[x] silver
[X] purple
[x] brown
[ ] orange
[ ] grey
[ ] fuscia
[x] maroon
[ ] gold
[ ] teal
[ ] coral
[ ] clear
[ ] bronze
[ ] I don't really care
[ ] rainbow
[ ] I basically like all colors
Your personality is sometimes...
[x] talkative
[X] shy
[X] funny
[x] serious
[X] laid back
[ ] strict
[x] hyper
[x] sarcastic
[ ] I have multiple personalities
You like listening to:
[ ] pop
[ ] country
[ ] Christian
[X] orchestral/classical
[x] techno
[X] oldies
[ ] opera
[ ] soca
[x] 80's
[ ] disco
[ ] rap
[x] classic rock
[x] punk
[x] metal
[x] reggae
[x] rock
[ ] alt/indie rock
[ ] emo
[X] foreign rock
[ ] ska
[X] lots of different stuff
[ ] dance hall
The pets you have had
[x] cat
[x] dog
[x] lizard
[ ] rat
[ ] mouse
[ ] ferret
[x] bunny
[X] fish
[ ] horse
[X] frog/toad
[X] hermit crab
[ ] turtle
[ ] hamster
[ ] snake
[ ] gerbil
[ ] guinea pig
[ ] pig
[x] goat
[ ] chinchilla
[ ] tarantula
[ ] geese
[ ] baby chicks
[ ] baby ducklings
[ ] none
[ ] hedgehog
[ ] snail
[ ] piranha
[ ] parrot
[ ] newt
[ ] pigeon
[X] rock
Your confessions:
[ ] I'm afraid of silence
[X] I am really ticklish
[ ] I'm afraid of the dark!
[x] I've collected comic books
[x] I sometimes shut out others
[ ] I open up to others TOO easily
[X] I read the newspaper
[ ] I love Disney movies
[X] I am a sucker for gorgeous eyes
[ ] I am a sucker for gorgeous smile
[ ] I don't kill bugs
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name
[X] I bake well
[x] I have worn pajamas to class
[ ] I love Martha Stewart
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS
[x] I am self-conscious
[x] I love to laugh
[ ] I can't swallow pills
[ ] I bite my nails
[x] I play computer games when I'm bored
[x] I have gotten lost in the city
[x] I have gone out in public in my pajamas
[ ] I made out in an elevator
[ ] I have been skydiving
[ ] I have been bungee jumping
[x] I have bitten someone
[ ] I have egged or rolled a house/car/telephone booth.
[x] I have smashed into a car
[ ] I have been fired
[ ] I have been skinny dipping
Have you ever...
[x] seen a shooting star
[ ] joke proposed to anyone
[x] gotten stitches
[X] eaten Sushi
[X] gotten the chicken pox
[x] Ridden in a taxi
[ ] Been on a cruise ship
[X] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[x] Been on a plane by yourself
[x] had surgery
[ ] seen a movie more than 3 times in the theater
[X] been on stage
[x] gotten a black eye
[x] memorized all the dialogue in a movie
[X] watched an entire baseball game
Do you like...
[x] old movies
[ ] musicals
[x] blasting music in your car/or someone else's
[X] foreign foods
[x] gameboy Pokemon (shhh...)
[ ] Christmas time
[x] animals
[x] coffee
[x] tea
[x] summer
[x] winter (I just have to get over the COLD part.)
TWOs OF EVERY KIND
Two Names You Go By:
*Meagunn, Megs.
Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
*Sweatshirt, Pants?
Two Places You Want to go on Vacation:
*Japan, somewhere with a beach.
Two favorite animals?
*Monkeys, penguins.
Two Things You Want in a Relationship other than Real Love:
*Honesty, trust
Two Reasons you're doing this survey:
*Boredom. More boredom.
Spell your name without vowels:
*Mgnn. Ha. Used to go by that one.
How many pairs of jeans do you own?
*Two?
What color(s) do you wear most often?
*Black, grey, brown.
Last song heard on the radio?
*No clue... haven't listened to the radio in a while.
Are you missing someone right now?
*Aren't we all?
What's for dinner tonight?
*What was? Weird dining hall concoctions....
Are you happy with your life right now?
*Somewhat. Could be better.
[Do you own a...]
- PS2? Yes
- XBOX? No
- XBOX 360? No
- PSP? No
- Gamecube? No
- A digital camera? Yes.
- A Wii? No
Do you shop at stores like Aeropostale and American Eagle:
God no.
How do you make money?
*Wherever I can.
Last thing you bought?
*Beer.
How's the weather?
*Cold as balls.
Favorite pair of shoes:
*Boots.
Do you own big sunglasses?
*I don't own any.
Do you find yourself attractive?
*Not excessively.
What should you be doing right now?
*Doing homework probably. Or sleeping.
Who did you hug today?
*Chase, earlier. But he rushed me.
How many beds did you lay in yesterday?
*One.
Name one thing that you do everyday?
*Wake up...
What's the color of your bedroom walls?
*White white white...
How much cash do you have on you right now?
*Hah, random change.
What's your favorite sport?
*Something very violent. Like gladiator sports, or something.
When was the last time you saw your dad?
*A few weeks ago.
What did you have for dinner last night?
*Actually... don;t remember. I did have pizza later that night though.
Look to your left, what do you see?
*The radiator. A window. The fan. Bottles of urine (don't ask)....
Do you have plants in your room?
*None yet.
What's your favorite Starbucks drink?
*I can't afford anything there...
Recent time you were really upset?
*That's really hard to tell. I don't emotionally get "upset".
Time Finished: 4:08 a.m.
Time Started: 3:44 a.m.
Name: Meagunn
Gender: wha?
1) When showering, do you start the water and then get in or get in and start the water?
I always start the water first. The showers here are screwy.
2) Do you read the labels on the shampoo bottle?
If I'm particularly enjoying the shower and need some reading material...
3) Do you moan in the shower like the people on the herbal essence commercials?
Um, no.
5) Have you ever been forced to shower with one of your siblings?
Not that I can think of.
6.) Have you ever brushed your teeth in the shower?
I usually do... It makes everything clean all at once.
7) Have you ever dropped your soap on your foot?
When I used soap, yeah. But I've dropped bottles.
8) How old do you look?
People either think I'm a lot older or younger than I am.
9) How old do you act?
It really depends on who I'm with at the time.
10) What's the last song you heard/sang?
The Asshole Song by Denis Leary.
11) Have you recently become a member of anything?
Not recently, luckily. I have a tendency to get roped into things.
12) What are your plans for the weekend?
Drinking probably. And doing homework. Ehm.
13) What is your mood at the moment?
Relaxed. Settling into sleep mode.
14.) Have you ever ridden a mechanical bull?
I wish. I'd like to try that someday...
15) Do you ever intentionally vomit after drinking?
Intentionally? Hell no. Unintentionally? On occasion...
16) If you were working on a pirate ship, what would you most likely be?
Yarrgh, I be a sea-wench.
17) Have you ever called anyone a slut?
Probably jokingly. And intentionally, really.
18) Has anyone ever called you a slut?
I'm not usually the type to inspire those kinds of comments in people...
19) Have you ever smuggled something into Canada?
Ants. From Ohio.
20) Does playing a guitar make someone more attractive?
Actually.... yes. I'm ashamed to say.
21) Do you live in a city with a good sports team?
Well, maybe. But I don't follow sports all that well.
22) Have you ever finished off the popcorn?
Yeah.
23) Have you ever turned someone down for a date?
Yeah.
24) What's your favorite super-hero?
The Incredible Hulk. And Gambit. And Too Much Coffee Man. And The Tick. Ehm.
25) Do you have more enemies or more friends?
Friends.
26) Have you ever sent an anonymous letter?
Probably at some point.
27) Can you fix your own car?
Depending on the problem, yes.
29) Are you smarter than your friends?
IQ? Yes for some, no for a couple. Otherwise...it's all relative.
30) Have you ever stolen anything from your friends?
I ask first, thank you.
31) Have you ever been to jail?
Nope.
32) Last thing you bought over 50 dollars?
Textbooks?
33) Do you like the smell of beer?
Good beer? Yes.
34) Have you ever died or killed someone in a dream?
Violently.
35) Have you ever given to charity?
When I had money.
36) Would you kill a dog for $1000?
Ashamed to say... probably. That's a lot of money.
37) Do you ever get depressed?
Yes.
38) Do you live with your parents?
Hell no.
39) Do you have plans for your future?
I hope so.
You are
[x] short (under 5'4")
[ ] 5'4"-5'5"
[ ] 5'5"-5.6"
[ ] 5'6.5"-5'7"
[ ] 5'7"-6'0"
[ ] tall (6.1 and up)
NATURALLY
[ ] blonde
[ ] redhead
[ ] brunette
[ ] dirty blonde
[ ] brownish
[ ] dark brown
[ ] black
[ ] red/light brown
[x] Don't Know, Dyed Too Much
[ ] blue-eyed
[x] brown-eyed
[ ] black-eyed
[ ] green-eyed
[ ] Hazel-eyed
[ ] gold/grey-eyed
[ ] silver/grey-eyed
[ ] blue/green-eyed
[ ] blue/grey-eyed
[ ] green/grey-eyed
[ ] they change colours (see above)
[ ] amber
[X]glasses
[ ] contacts
[ ] neither
[ ]Both
[ ] bald
[x] short hair
[ ] medium hair
[ ] long hair
Your favourite color(s) are?
[x] red
[ ] khaki
[ ] aqua
[ ] pink
[ ] hot pink
[ ] yellow
[x] black
[x] green
[ ] lime green
[ ] blue (all)
[ ] white
[ ] turquoise
[x] silver
[X] purple
[x] brown
[ ] orange
[ ] grey
[ ] fuscia
[x] maroon
[ ] gold
[ ] teal
[ ] coral
[ ] clear
[ ] bronze
[ ] I don't really care
[ ] rainbow
[ ] I basically like all colors
Your personality is sometimes...
[x] talkative
[X] shy
[X] funny
[x] serious
[X] laid back
[ ] strict
[x] hyper
[x] sarcastic
[ ] I have multiple personalities
You like listening to:
[ ] pop
[ ] country
[ ] Christian
[X] orchestral/classical
[x] techno
[X] oldies
[ ] opera
[ ] soca
[x] 80's
[ ] disco
[ ] rap
[x] classic rock
[x] punk
[x] metal
[x] reggae
[x] rock
[ ] alt/indie rock
[ ] emo
[X] foreign rock
[ ] ska
[X] lots of different stuff
[ ] dance hall
The pets you have had
[x] cat
[x] dog
[x] lizard
[ ] rat
[ ] mouse
[ ] ferret
[x] bunny
[X] fish
[ ] horse
[X] frog/toad
[X] hermit crab
[ ] turtle
[ ] hamster
[ ] snake
[ ] gerbil
[ ] guinea pig
[ ] pig
[x] goat
[ ] chinchilla
[ ] tarantula
[ ] geese
[ ] baby chicks
[ ] baby ducklings
[ ] none
[ ] hedgehog
[ ] snail
[ ] piranha
[ ] parrot
[ ] newt
[ ] pigeon
[X] rock
Your confessions:
[ ] I'm afraid of silence
[X] I am really ticklish
[ ] I'm afraid of the dark!
[x] I've collected comic books
[x] I sometimes shut out others
[ ] I open up to others TOO easily
[X] I read the newspaper
[ ] I love Disney movies
[X] I am a sucker for gorgeous eyes
[ ] I am a sucker for gorgeous smile
[ ] I don't kill bugs
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name
[X] I bake well
[x] I have worn pajamas to class
[ ] I love Martha Stewart
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS
[x] I am self-conscious
[x] I love to laugh
[ ] I can't swallow pills
[ ] I bite my nails
[x] I play computer games when I'm bored
[x] I have gotten lost in the city
[x] I have gone out in public in my pajamas
[ ] I made out in an elevator
[ ] I have been skydiving
[ ] I have been bungee jumping
[x] I have bitten someone
[ ] I have egged or rolled a house/car/telephone booth.
[x] I have smashed into a car
[ ] I have been fired
[ ] I have been skinny dipping
Have you ever...
[x] seen a shooting star
[ ] joke proposed to anyone
[x] gotten stitches
[X] eaten Sushi
[X] gotten the chicken pox
[x] Ridden in a taxi
[ ] Been on a cruise ship
[X] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[x] Been on a plane by yourself
[x] had surgery
[ ] seen a movie more than 3 times in the theater
[X] been on stage
[x] gotten a black eye
[x] memorized all the dialogue in a movie
[X] watched an entire baseball game
Do you like...
[x] old movies
[ ] musicals
[x] blasting music in your car/or someone else's
[X] foreign foods
[x] gameboy Pokemon (shhh...)
[ ] Christmas time
[x] animals
[x] coffee
[x] tea
[x] summer
[x] winter (I just have to get over the COLD part.)
TWOs OF EVERY KIND
Two Names You Go By:
*Meagunn, Megs.
Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
*Sweatshirt, Pants?
Two Places You Want to go on Vacation:
*Japan, somewhere with a beach.
Two favorite animals?
*Monkeys, penguins.
Two Things You Want in a Relationship other than Real Love:
*Honesty, trust
Two Reasons you're doing this survey:
*Boredom. More boredom.
Spell your name without vowels:
*Mgnn. Ha. Used to go by that one.
How many pairs of jeans do you own?
*Two?
What color(s) do you wear most often?
*Black, grey, brown.
Last song heard on the radio?
*No clue... haven't listened to the radio in a while.
Are you missing someone right now?
*Aren't we all?
What's for dinner tonight?
*What was? Weird dining hall concoctions....
Are you happy with your life right now?
*Somewhat. Could be better.
[Do you own a...]
- PS2? Yes
- XBOX? No
- XBOX 360? No
- PSP? No
- Gamecube? No
- A digital camera? Yes.
- A Wii? No
Do you shop at stores like Aeropostale and American Eagle:
God no.
How do you make money?
*Wherever I can.
Last thing you bought?
*Beer.
How's the weather?
*Cold as balls.
Favorite pair of shoes:
*Boots.
Do you own big sunglasses?
*I don't own any.
Do you find yourself attractive?
*Not excessively.
What should you be doing right now?
*Doing homework probably. Or sleeping.
Who did you hug today?
*Chase, earlier. But he rushed me.
How many beds did you lay in yesterday?
*One.
Name one thing that you do everyday?
*Wake up...
What's the color of your bedroom walls?
*White white white...
How much cash do you have on you right now?
*Hah, random change.
What's your favorite sport?
*Something very violent. Like gladiator sports, or something.
When was the last time you saw your dad?
*A few weeks ago.
What did you have for dinner last night?
*Actually... don;t remember. I did have pizza later that night though.
Look to your left, what do you see?
*The radiator. A window. The fan. Bottles of urine (don't ask)....
Do you have plants in your room?
*None yet.
What's your favorite Starbucks drink?
*I can't afford anything there...
Recent time you were really upset?
*That's really hard to tell. I don't emotionally get "upset".
Time Finished: 4:08 a.m.
1.10.2007
Holes.
Robert bought me some new holes today. The industrial piercing looks really good; I'd been wanting that for a while. At least, some new kind of body mod. This changes me enough to mark a milestone---stick some needles in me, I'm good.
Last night I had some good stuff for the first time. And it was excellent. Now I have a few more bruises, and am not entirely sure how I got them. That's okay.
This season's cold; it finally started snowing today. And it's a pining sort of time, where things feel a bit fresh and washed away, and yet that longing for something new's still in the air. Winter is a time of limbo, of stasis. Finally it's come, and that thing that's been hanging in the air is washed away, leaving nothing it its path.
I'm moving on. And yet there's still something I'm chasing after. Someone. 'Cept I'm absolutely shitty at this stuff. And if someone were to take up the responsibility for me, I'd feel like a twelve-year-old girl.
I need to get up early and write about myself. The sunrise must wait.
Last night I had some good stuff for the first time. And it was excellent. Now I have a few more bruises, and am not entirely sure how I got them. That's okay.
This season's cold; it finally started snowing today. And it's a pining sort of time, where things feel a bit fresh and washed away, and yet that longing for something new's still in the air. Winter is a time of limbo, of stasis. Finally it's come, and that thing that's been hanging in the air is washed away, leaving nothing it its path.
I'm moving on. And yet there's still something I'm chasing after. Someone. 'Cept I'm absolutely shitty at this stuff. And if someone were to take up the responsibility for me, I'd feel like a twelve-year-old girl.
I need to get up early and write about myself. The sunrise must wait.
1.07.2007
and who else doesn't know?
So it's been a bit of a while. A lot of things have happened; a stay in the nut farm, the possible end of a relationship. Today I got back in Motown, after break driving me nuts. Craziness, as it usually does here, ensued.
So much craziness permeates these days. I don't know what to make of it. There's been nothing but craziness.
The semester is anew. We'll see what it brings.
So much craziness permeates these days. I don't know what to make of it. There's been nothing but craziness.
The semester is anew. We'll see what it brings.
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